Friday, August 20, 2010


I was watching House tonight. The episode had a very sick nun and one of the doctors volunteered to pray with her and cited this bible verse and it stuck with me.

Peter 1:7 These trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold -- and your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being tried by fiery trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.

It didn't make me think of my trials however. I think I have a pretty good/easy life. No drama, my family is great. My job is secure (I like it most days).

It actually made me think of all the other IF bloggers out there. The ones who have lost babies they were supposed to receive via adoption...and others through miscarriage. I can only hope if I have to endure these things one day, I can handle it with the grace and faith in God and His plan in which they did.

We all have trials, we get closer to God on how we handle them. I am glad to be a part of the Catholic IF community (and our non-IF bloggers :). It strengthens my faith by witnessing others. I just wanted to say thank you.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Prayer Buddy Reveal

Praying for this young lady was an honor. I prayed for Shannon at (I am not smart enough to hyperlink!)

She is an amazingly faithful woman (and not to mention, beautiful). She loves her faith and her God. I've been reading her blog for a year or more, long before I was a blogger myself. I believe she's want any woman would want in a friend.

I prayed for her daily (well almost daily). Sorry! I tried, really! :) I offered up pain from an HSG and anxiousness from my husband's surgery. She sure kept me busy with all the traveling, becoming certified as a speech-language pathologist, moving, trying to find a new job, a prospective new guy and her vocation she's so ready to start. She's been a busy woman.

Shannon may God bless you!

Friday, August 13, 2010

Quick Takes

So...I'm finally falling in line with the Friday afternoon Quick Takes. It's my first, so bear with me.

1. I've had nothing to blog about. Sorry! :) I know, I know, you SOOOO want to keep reading!!!

2. My husband is doing crazy well! I'm so impressed. He almost has full range of motion back after his knee surgery last week. He's also doing things he's not supposed to...stubborn ass man!! God knows I love him though!!

3. Can I just say I HATE HATE HATE looking for a place?!?! We're just looking for an apartment right now. We have been living in an Extended Stay for TOO LONG! It's so discouraging. With the hubby's record, it's hard to find a decent place. It's amazing how what you did so many years ago can keep haunting you and everyone around you. Oh well, we keep on keeping on. What choice do we have, KWIM?

4. I've lost 7 more pounds in the last week or so. My RE's nurse gave me a 10 pound goal for the month of August. I think I'll make it. No carb is HARD, but I feel SO MUCH BETTER! I can't believe it. I don't feel sluggish (well sometimes my sugar gets a little low), more energy, not so much brain fog. Today was a cheat day and I feel like I'm dragging ass!! I can't wait for the day to end so I can go home and lay down. I hate that.

5. I feel SOO MUCH BETTER now that I'm back on my Synthroid. I'm human again. I still HATE getting up in the mornings, but I've been like that since I was a kid. I don't think I can blame it on anything, other than I love to sleep.

6. I'm so excited about the prayer buddy reveal this weekend, I'm pissing my pants in excitement! HA!

7. There are some really great things happening with adoptions and BFP news lately!! There are also a couple of not so great things. Some miscarriages and an adoption that didn't happen (and those are the only ones I know of). Please know I pray for you. All of you, the good and bad. I can't believe how emotional it all is. You wouldn't think reading a blog would make you feel like you know someone, but it does. I cry when reading about losing babies, both biological and adopted. It's truly heartbreaking. And I cry some more when the long elusive BFPs are announced. It's amazing, really. God bless you all!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Busy *Updated with results*

I've been working a lot of overtime trying to get my office (ok, cubicle) moved. I didn't realize how much crap I actually had.

My husband had knee surgery today. He'd been having problems but with a X-rays and MRIs they couldn't figure out what was wrong. Well he took a little tumble down the stairs on Monday and had it. His doctor would go in arthroscopically to see what was going on. Well he had a torn miniscus, his knee cap was not smooth and he has a "hole in his bone". He has to use crutches for a month! No weight bearing at all. It's his right knee, so he can't drive. I'm having to take so much time off work, I wonder how I will ever catch up.

I feel so bad for him. I know it hurts (i had my ACL/MCL blown a few years ago). He's a big guy (6'1" and about 270lbs), watching him use crutches is pitiful.

I got all my test results from the RE. I failed my 3 hour glucose test spectacularly. I mean SERIOUSLY FAILED. I am 12 points away from being classified as a diabetic. SCARY! My testosterone is 44 = HIGH! Very HIGH! My TSH was high. My ACTH (adrenal test I believe) was through the roof. Normal is 2-27 mine was 54. No wonder I feel like shit! I need help from all you adrenal people!! I had the Cotrosyn and the Dexamethazone tests, but am still waiting for results. What is wrong with me?!?!

I was told low/no carb diet again. This time it suck in..because for crying out loud I do not want to be a diabetic. It runs in my family, I've seen what it can do, and it ain't pretty!

So between work, my poor hubby and my own stuff, it's been a sucky week. I don't think I'm ever going to dig out of the back log.

I am soo happy about all the adoption news and BFPs!! It is all so exciting!! God bless our prayer buddies!

Below are the tests and results...

Glucose Tolerance Test:
Fasting - 86
1 Hr - 188 (200 is the cut off for diabetes)
2 Hr - 172
3 Hr - 95

Insulin Response to Glucose Tolerance Test:
Fasting - 14
1 Hr - 131 (normal range 8-112)
2 Hr - 331 (normal range 5-55)
3 Hr - 154 (normal range 3-20)

Vitamind D
21ng/ml (normal 30-100)


T4, Free

T3, Total

ACTH, Plasma
52 (normal 5-27)

44 (normal 2-45)

Hydroxyprogesterone (i have no idea what this is)
48 (normal 285 or less for luteal phase)

C-Reactive Protein
1.48 (normal should be less than .80)

HPV - positive (the kind that causes cerivcal cancer, not herpes)

2.9 (normal 1.5 - 9.1 for luteal phase)